I'm tired. I really am. I am exhausted. Life is weird at the moment. One moment things are going awesome, the next you are questioning so much. Did I mention I'm tired? I'm also 22 on the 18th May, this coming Monday. I'm not really a birthday fan. I think of my dad on my birthday which makes me sad. I miss him. I don't like how when people find out that it's your birthday they instantly wish you happy birthday in a way that they care. I said happy birthday to so many people and yet most of them I couldn't have cared if it was their birthday. Harsh I know. I think it's because for the past few birthdays I've had, it felt as though hardly anyone cared. For my 20th birthday I invited about 20 people out for dinner to celebrate it. We sat at Cafe Primo's for an hour at this huge table and only 4 people showed up. I've never felt so embarrassed in all my life. It hurt me pretty bad. Nearly all the excuses were that they had youth group that night. Fail. I have a lecture on my birthday, it's my favourite lecture so I'm happy to spend my birthday listening to the incredible lectures I have in my life. Though I wouldn't mind finding an awesome hill lookout point that looks over Adelaide. I like look outs. They make me think about things at a much deeper state of mind. I want to move there, make my life what it is there.
Bring it on my friend. Im feeling the same way. Maybe instead of Gringo's we could go to the Windy Point lookout and eat sambos. I can't wait to get out of this place.
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